The journey of creating this film has changed who I am as a filmmaker and as a person. This film has rewritten my core beliefs and altered my view about my own place in this world.

I have been transformed.

Like many of us, I had no real idea what Autism was.

All I knew was that those with Autism and mental disabilities were different and that they had a limited capacity in the world, as the word disability would suggest. (I have since learned to dislike the use of that term). I existed in a space where my lack of knowledge and understanding left me feeling unsure and awkward about Autism and those who live with it.

Everything changed for me when I first heard Ryan speak. I instantly recognized him as an articulate and well-spoken young man, a man who also happened to have Autism. I did not have any inclination then, that the journey I was about to embark on and the knowledge I would gain, would change my life forever.

As I began building a relationship with Ryan and his mom, I was taken on a journey of discovery. I listened to their hopes, dreams, struggles, and disappointments as they shared a glimpse into their world. Over time I recognized many traits that Ryan and I had in common and excitedly discovered our similarities. As our work together continued, I felt a change in my own consciousness, it was a subtle shift at first, barely recognizable, and it slowly nibbled at my inner most thoughts. I soon realized I was starting to feel more comfortable with myself; with my strengths and my weaknesses. I was also becoming more honest with myself.

Like so many of us, I suffer from my own mental health struggles. And like so many, I kept those struggles with Complex PTSD, anxiety, and depression a deep secret. I saw these things as a weakness of character, something that I should be ashamed of.

What I learned through Ryan is that you need to accept yourself, to embrace who you are, and in fact, celebrate it. I no longer saw my struggles as something that I should be ashamed of. Instead, I came to see them as a strength, one that has given me an insight into the human experience that many are not afforded. In short, while working with Ryan, I have become a better human being.

Those with Autism may interact with the world through a different lens but they don’t hide behind social constraints. They are genuine, accepting, inclusive, and loving, without reservation.

Through this film, I was able to capture Ryan and witness him embrace who he is and celebrate his uniqueness. I believe Ryan’s inspirational story will change the conversation around Autism.

As a film maker, I am humbled and honoured that Ryan has entrusted me as the messenger to deliver to the world his amazing, triumphant, and personal story.

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